Jump In, The Water's Fine.

Change is good.
…sometimes.
Well, most of the time.
It really all depends on whether you want it or not.
There can be change you cannot control, change you have to just go along with.
Or there can be the change that you conduct, for your own good.
Either way, it’s all a scary process.
First you decide on impulse. “yes. I need to do this. Let’s do it now.”
Or it could be, “let’s just get it over with. Like a bandaid.”
You just want to jump into it and not look back.

Then of course, there’s the thinking. All these thoughts come in that you don’t want in your head.
“Should I really do it? Do I really want to? Oh, god I don’t wanna do this…”
And your head just becomes this mashup of uncertainty that you wish you could just get rid of.
Then you spend days comparing how your life would be; better or worse. And those thoughts are still there bothering that part of you that wishes they could just go through with it.
But in this jumble of disorder and doubt in our heads, there’s that tiny voice.
Our “pusher” that says, JUST DO IT ALREADY.
Little by little the nagging ones disappear and your mind simply tells you to go for it.

So, like all situations we’re scared in, we just close our eyes and hold our breath.
Kind of like…walking into the fire.
We go towards the change in hopes that life will be better, more improved than what we had before.
You tell yourself you must do it for your own sake; nobody else’s.
The constant reminder of your own happiness comes to mind every time you stray from it.
And of course there are the people who tell you to go for it, and those who tell you your life is fine the way it is.
Which of course, ignites the chaos once again.
And our mind just won’t shut up until we finally look up, clench our jaw, and take our first painful step into those crackling flames.